Clear

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me... the problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you.  ~Author Unknown

Fleeing

I know well what I am fleeing from but not what I am in search of.  

~Michel de Montaigne

 

I just noticed that this will be my 100 post on my personal blog.  How time flies.. to think how I've grown, into and out of things... I've cried and laughed.. I've been frustrated and felt weak but I've had some great friends to help me out along the way.    You know who you are.

Live Darkly

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”
― Anaïs Nin

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Sins

Women have a special corner of their hearts for sins they have never committed.
Cornelia Otis Skinner

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Reverie

Thought is the labor of the intellect, 

reverie is its pleasure.  

~Victor Hugo

 

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Quiet

You have the Answer.  

Just get quiet enough to hear it.  

~Pat Obuchowski

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Nostalgic

It's never safe to be nostalgic about something until you're absolutely

 certain there's no chance of its coming back.  

~Bill Vaughn

 

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Flies away

 Sadness flies away on the wings of time.  

~Jean de La Fontaine

There are some times, here in the cold when all I can think about is your warmth. I don't want to think about it, I hate myself for doing it. But I know it is part of the healing process. I know it will take time... and that really is all I have here : Time.

Leaving

Finding herself recently heartbroken, Catherine has thrown herself into her work and asked to be transferred to a remote outpost in the antarctic.   When she got the call that the plane was leaving in an hour, there was not much time to pack.  Her mind was made up, she was leaving this all behind. She packed all the clothes she knew would keep her warm, a few souvenirs, photos, her camera….   She locked the door behind her.  She didn’t have to look back for another year she thought, fooling herself.

To be continued.......

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Briefly

Looking back, you realize that a very special person 

passed briefly through your life, 

and that person was you.  

It is not too late to become that person again.  

~Robert Brault

Rarest

The rarest thing in the world is a woman who is pleased with photographs of herself.  ~Elizabeth Metcalf

I am.

I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart.  I am.  I am.  I am.  

~Sylvia Plath

 It is not often I get upset over someone's comments or critique when it is directed at me.  However this was different. It hurt.

Way

The first step... shall be to lose the way.  

~Galway Kinnell

Into the wave

I find myself at the extremity of a long beach.  How gladly does the spirit leap forth, and suddenly enlarge its sense of being to the full extent of the broad, blue, sunny deep!  A greeting and a homage to the Sea!  I descend over its margin, and dip my hand into the wave that meets me, and bathe my brow.  That far-resounding roar is the Ocean's voice of welcome.  His salt breath brings a blessing along with it.

  ~Nathaniel Hawthorne, "Foot-prints on the Sea-shore"

Less is more....

Hello... remember me ? 

Today I logged into Second Life for the first time since September.  I used second life as an escape from the chaos of my daily life.. last September, I needed to let go of SL to come to terms and face the chaos.  Did it work ?  Hell ya !  I've completed some long term goals I wanted for my real life business, spent more time with my family, created some amazing images, fully booked my 2012 wedding season and given myself some new projects to look forward to.  But, it wasn't easy, not easy at all. 

That said, when I did log into SL, I realized how much I missed it.  I missed the core group of people I used to talk with on a daily basis. I missed the creative side, taking images, blogging and creating poses.  Yes, I missed it more than I can describe.

So... what now ?   I'm not sure.   I'd love to be in world once or twice a week.  I think if I spent any more time than that, it would hurt all the things I've worked so hard on these past months.  SL can be addictive and I recognize that.  So if I do decide to create or blog, I must promise myself to stay true to a few simple things, stay genuine, less is more, do what I love.

Cat
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Sincerity

Originality is... a by-product of sincerity. 

~Marianne Moore

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Apparatus

Brain, n.  An apparatus with which we think that we think. 

~Ambrose Bierce, The Devil's Dictionary

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Surfaced

We think too small, like the frog at the bottom of the well. He thinks the sky is only as big as the top of the well. If he surfaced, he would have an entirely different view.

- Mao Tse-Tung

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Bait

Good things come to those who bait. 

~Author Unknown

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Monster

I think you have to know who you are. Get to know the monster that lives in your soul, dive deep into your soul and explore it.

Tori Amos

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