Art is your personal diary where you may color your thoughts and emotions on a page.
Catherine Fairport
Monday, October 28, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Secret in my pocket
Or... listen to it here (may sound like crap tho) Big thanks to Keira for that little trick. Anyhow. This is part of the writer's block challenge. Details can be found over here
The familiar
decaying walls, the wallpaper peeling away, whole pieces of plaster crumbling
on the floor.….. This is where I go,
but…. I am probably always here. Maybe
leaving the room is the illusion.
In my
familiar there is something different today.
Alone, in the not quite center of the room there is a crumpled piece of
paper. I look at it, my head slowly
swaying from side to side.
Intruder.
Crumpled
piece of paper.
I crouch
suddenly like a demented animal. The
room smells of different.
I approach
warily and look at it. This crumpled
paper piece. I scoop it up and dusts
falls off its crumpled edges. There is
no light in this room, yet the dust shimmers in it.
Hello piece
of paper all crumbled up I say. I roll
it around in my hands and suddenly as if it was on fire, I let it fall to the
ground. What are you doing here, I yell. THIS is my room !!!!!
It doesn’t
do anything, it just exists. I kick it
and it rolls to the not quite corner of the room. I watch it hit the wall and bounce ever so
slightly off of it.
What did I just do
? I panic, rush and sit next to it. Still, I sit. I don’t look at it but I want
to. I look at it sometimes, but only
slightly through the corner of my eye.
I take it
again. It has changed, but it still
looks the same.
In a fit of
rage I UN-crumple it on the floor.
In my maddened state, I push the edges out. I flatten it as best I can. There it is in front of me. The realization
of everything is too much.
Yes. I am the
crumpled piece of paper. However I try, I
will never be smooth again. The creases,
the torn edge.. that is all me.
I look at
it, flip it over. It is blank. No instructions.
Fuck you
paper. I push it away. Get out of my
fucking room !
But it
won’t leave. I pretend it is not
there. I refuse its existence. It will go away I tell myself. It will just go away. It doesn’t.
I pace, repeating in my head that it will go away. I glare at it. I hate it.
I will tear
it up. I will set it free. I want to hear that sound that paper makes
when you tear it apart, you know, that sound that probably has a name and if it
doesn’t one should exist for it. I’m ready.. to do it.
Wait. Just wait. Think. If you tear it up, it will still exist. It will be pieces, but pieces of crumpled paper.
Exhale.
It wants
something. It needs something of me.
No.
I
want something out of it.
I crumble
because now I know.
I write. I make it mine.
Words
fabricated
Emotions real
Trust
evaporates
Love fades
Voids
filled
With
someone new
Me.
.
Friday, August 2, 2013
Dirty
Look at me now Catherine !
Breathe.
It wasn’t
pretty.
It wasn’t
flattering.
It wasn’t
even nice.
It was
dirty.
But what he said
Made me feel whole.
Created for the Writer's block challenge.
Number 3. - Let's just say he made me believe.
...
...
Monday, March 18, 2013
Because it happened....
The song
finishes, the final credits, the last page the curtains come down. That is just the way things are. Sometimes we are lucky enough to get a sequel
or an encore, and when we do… we have to make the most of it.
Before I
go, there are a few people that I would like to mention because they were there….
Gos. Thanks.
Thank you for seeing light in my art.
Thank you for the way too late conversations about life, photography and
silliness.
Rhapzody. Wherever you are, I hope you
are well. I miss our little
conversations about family. You are one
of those beautiful people I would have loved to meet in person.
Tricky. Thank you for sending me your skins to
blog. It has always meant so much when
you sent me them. I never felt very
worthy of it. I’m glad you thought I was
good enough to blog them. I’ll give you
a shout whenever I’m in your neck of the woods.
Don : I still owe you a date.
Sands : set
your monkey free !
Marg :
Thanks for being so nice to me and giving me the chance to blog, all that time
ago.
Bloggers. Creators,
event management: work together, make
beautiful art, do what you love.
Plurk friends : you've been entertaining, it doesn't matter how craptastic the day is, someone will post something to make me smile. ! I may just continue to read you when I can.
Plurk friends : you've been entertaining, it doesn't matter how craptastic the day is, someone will post something to make me smile. ! I may just continue to read you when I can.
Cad :
smacks you silly and quacks.
K : ILY, miss you. You know all this and much more. I need to be
that shooting star now.
I just
wanted to say goodbye.
And now, my
time in the game is over. There are many
things I need to get done in the real world… time is just too precious
now.
Be kind to each other.
Cat
Wednesday, December 19, 2012
Monday, September 3, 2012
Friday, August 24, 2012
Friday, August 3, 2012
Quiet waters
Only
in quiet waters do thing mirror themselves undistorted.
Only in a
quiet mind is adequate perception of the world.
~Hans Margolius
.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
Friday, July 20, 2012
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Saturday, July 14, 2012
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Slightly Cracked
“A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked”
Bernard Meltzer quotes
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Surrender
"Sometimes what seems like surrender isn't surrender at
all. It's about what's going on in our hearts. About seeing clearly
the way life is and accepting it and being true to it, whatever
the pain, because the pain of not being true to it is far, far
greater."
- Nicholas Evans, The Horse Whisperer
Monday, July 9, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
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